January: Going Greek & Feelin’ Chic

Hiya peeps!

This month has seemed both long and short, but it still doesn’t seem time to pop in with a “Currently” post. The good thing is with another month down, we are that much closer to the end of winter! The bad thing is, I only have a month or so left to wear my faaaaaaaabulous new coat…

Selfie New Coat

♫ Witha furrrrr…the whole club was looking at hurrrr! ♫

I could NOT believe my luck when I went out “looking” for a coat a couple of weeks ago and found this one, the third one I picked up, for only $80! And it’s a Columbia!

Current Book:

January - Book

Sometimes you pick a book based on a friends recommendation or because it was featured in a magazine. And sometimes you pick a book because it has a pretty cover! My mom has this incredible knack for picking out the best books based off their covers and I like to think I inherited a bit of the spidey bookworm senses from her! I knew nothing about Wide Open when I came home with it from the library a week ago and I’ve only got a handful of chapters left! We have ghosts, a hunky yet mysterious man, and a not-gonna-put-up-with-any-shit heroine. In other words, it’s awesome!

Current Music: 

One that somehow escaped my Chillax post from Monday, was this song by In The Valley Below…such a beautiful song that reminds me of someone. My favorite line: “I wish I’d found you sooner…I could’ve loved you longer”. Insert heart-eyed emoji here. Lol

Current Guilty Pleasure: 

The insane amount of selfies I snapped before and after the one at the top of this post. Not just because of my new furrr but because I actually took time (20 minutes!) to CURL my hair and obviously needed to ensure it was documented just right. Lol

Current Entertainment:

With all the reading and music-ing I’ve been doing, there’s really been no time for anything else…and I can’t complain about that!

Current Wish/Needs:

A new washer and dryer becaaaaaaause…I FINALLY GOT RID OF MINE!! I’ve hated those things since they tried to break out of the laundry room the week I got them! Only now, I’m even more nervous about picking a dud. Any and all recommendations are welcome!

Current Food:

Greek Yogurt

Step aside Oreos, the official GREEK YOGURT tester has arrived! I’m still tracking down new flavors and checking them off my list as I AM actually eating them this time around. For the record, all the pumpkin ones are now gone…and I’ve cried every day since. 

Current Drink:

Camelbak Water

I swear I’ve drunk enough water in the last month to fill a swimming pool! Guess I’ve more than made up for all the beer I drank earlier this month. By the way, the invitation’s still open for my breakfast of blueberry beer and bacon. Any takers?

Current Triumphs:

Getting the courage to type yesterday’s post and (after four hours of deleting/retyping/rearranging my words) finally feeling like I said it all the way I really wanted to. It’s been a rough last few months as I’ve felt very uncomfortable in my skin. Being able to rise above that evil little voice in the back of my head telling me I was fat and taking a stand to get rid of some bad habits I’ve accrued recently so that I’m HEALTHY, really shows how far I’ve come in my journey.

Current Bane of Existence:

Winter…me…me because of winter. I try you guys, I really do, but it is so hard not to be a Grumper McGrumperson when it’s farking cold outside and you feel trapped in your house with nothing to do! I’ve started making plans for the upcoming weeks and I did go to the store for some paint samples for my bathroom the other day. If that doesn’t help, if you need me, I’ll be sulking in the corner…in my gym’s sauna. ;)

Current Blogger Crush:

Ok, so I’ve been crushing on this girl like mad crazy since Blend 2013, but when Carly messaged me the other day to tell me that she’s going to Blend this year, I squealed like a little girl! And since I’m still uber behind in all my blog reading, I figured right NOW would be as good a time as any to stalk her, read this post, and could not stop the bobblehead action that ensued. Read this…NOW!

Current Indulgence:

Bubble Bath

Sometimes, all you need to cure a foul winter mood is a trip to the gym followed by a lonnnnnnng (ok, more like 15 minutes before my damn water got cold!) soak in a lavender bubble-filled tub!

Current Blessing:

Having people in my life who know me enough to not hold my foul winter mood against me and are the ones to suggest I go soak in a lavender bubble-filled tub.

Current Outfit:

LeggingsOk, so actually I’ve been pretty much living in my workout clothes, but since I felt extra cute in my new fleece-lined leggings that I ordered during my Cyber Monday shopping extravaganza, I had to share. Plus, we already know how good they make my ass look! ;)

 Current Excitement:

Ever since buying my ticket to Blend, it all feels so REAL!

Current Link:

https://www.opensky.com/member/50bf3c471c0ba0b15f000011

Can’t stop, won’t stop! Come, join me on the dark side! ;)

Current Mood:

Positive. Impatient. And yeah, I gotta pee! Lol

What is your current triumph?

Tell me something your EXCITED about!

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Thoughts on Body Comparison

“God, I wish I had her _______.”

Insert whatever body part you like because we’ve all said it…either to ourselves or to our girlfriends. But earlier this month, as I was flipping through some old photos on my computer, I found myself saying that in reference to ME!

Bicep Muscle 2012

This was my LEFT (I’m right-handed) bicep circa 2012. Granted, that is a really nice filter, thank you, Mr. Instagram, but can you believe that back then, I never thought I had ANY muscle? What the hell was I thinking?!

I’m pretty confident that I was in the best shape of my life in 2012, but that’s also about the time I got mentally fucked up in regards to health and nutrition. All I saw was the end goal…which was ALWAYS changing due to my “grass is always greener” outlook…but was basically, “Get skinny, be happy!”

2012 Weight Loss SelfieOnly, once I dropped twenty pounds and was back into my size 4’s (never mind the fact that I purchased those jeans during my divorce when I was basically surviving off a diet of coffee and saltine crackers), the happiness was fleeting. Soon the excitement was traded in for anxiety as I attempted maintenance. Well let me tell you something, when you drop weight that you never should’ve lost, it’s really fucking hard to keep that shit off.

After a few months, I realized I just couldn’t do it. That’s when I finally decided to give up calorie counting and found Intuitive Eating. Unfortunately, my timing was horrible since it coincided with the time of my knee surgery. I wasn’t able to do the same things I could in the past…workout or otherwise. Also, it was winter and I was alone a LOT. I tried my best to keep a positive outlook, but as I felt my clothes getting tighter, I got more and more depressed. Or perhaps it was the other way around?

After a year of ups and downs, I made a decision to really focus on myself. I took a step back from blogging and deleted social media accounts that were harboring my need for comparison. I finally got back in the gym with a fresh outlook and it helped a LOT. Even though I figured I’d put on about ten pounds in the past year or so, I started to appreciate my curves and even allowed myself to be a little narcissistic at times. ;)

Yoga Selfie

Not long after discovering my love for yoga, I was seeing my body (and knee) move in ways I didn’t think possible. As corny as it may sound I think this is when I started loving myself from the inside out. Sure there were days where I felt uncomfortable in my skin (which we ARE allowed to have – nobody’s perfect!) but for the most part, I was feeling good ALIVE! :D

This summer things started to change. I found myself distracted with people, places, and concerts and just didn’t have time for the gym or the yoga studio. I tried to make up for it with the occasional walk, but I knew I needed more since I’d also let my diet take a nosedive. As the cold weather rolled in, the motivation rolled out. It took a few months, but by winter, I knew I’d probably put on ANOTHER ten pounds.

I started feeling fat and frumpy and once I saw those old pictures, I started feeling hopeless and wishing I had what I used to have…especially after I put on a pair of not-size-four jeans and couldn’t get them zipped. That’s when I knew something had to give.

2015 Weight SelfieSo for the last THREE weeks, I’ve been hitting the gym regularly, I’ve been eating stuff and drinking a shit-ton of water and peeing like crazy…umm, I mean yeah, well that too, but I’ve also been feeling FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!

Yesterday, after getting home from running some errands and feeling cute, I took NEW pictures. And then…you know what I did THEN?! I pulled up those old photos, I uploaded them into PicMonkey, I made myself a little side-by-side comparison and…then I said, “holy fucking shit!”

2012-2015 Weight Gain Selfie

Fuck you size fours, baby got BACK!

So morale of this extremely long-winded story? No matter what you or anyone else looks like, in the end, it all comes down to how you feel about YOU. Oh and it’s OKAY to check in with yourself every so often to hold yourself accountable…you’re allowed to want to be healthy even if everyone around you is stuffing their faces with pizza and cookies. Everything in moderation, including moderation and all that jazz. Also, get off your lazy ass and move a little because you know, endorphins don’t suck! ;)

And even though I find Meghan Trainor’s song to be annoyingly overplayed and desperately in need of some actual base, she DOES have a point…

♫ “Boys they like a little more booty to hold at night”♫

“Dat booty booty, dat booty booty”

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Music Monday: The Chillax Edition

Music soothes the soul.

I am a firm believer in this. Music is a powerful thing and without it, life would be very very different. For me, music is a lot of things, but lately, it’s been my reprieve, an escape from life’s craziness where everything slows down…even if it’s only on the drive to work. Without even realizing it, I’ve been trading my toe-tapping, knee-slapping, get up and DAYance beats, for melodies that help soothe my tired toes, warm my knee bones, and make me wanna get down…and sleep! And if I can’t sleep? Well, I’ll just stare into space and DAYdream. Lol

There are MANY songs I love winding down to, but today, I’m narrowing it down to the tunes I’ve not been able to get out of my head since I’ve been sampling a few of new playlists on Spotify…

Fade Into You by Mazzy Star

I know this is an oldie, but it’s definitely a goodie and actually one that I’d forgotten about until I stumbled over it on a Throwback Thursday playlist. That was just last week and I swear I’ve played it at least a half dozen times.

Karma Police by Radiohead

I’ve never really thought of myself as a Radiohead fan…well, except when I was belting out “Creep” as lead singer in my Rockband back in 2007. It’s another one from the 90’s and I know there are probably more than a few of you out there who were just being born around that time, but seriously, just listen to it.

Wait by M83

Now this is a band that’s been around for over a dozen years…but I am only now discovering them thanks to a couple of recent movie soundtracks they’ve been involved in. This particular song showed up in The Fault in Our Stars and has been one of my loves since my ol’ pal Google hooked us up.

Arsonist’s Lullabye by Hozier

Another newly discovered artist. I know EVERYONE knows “Take Me to Church” but have you listened to anything else by Hozier?
Because seriously, his stuff rocks! Love that soulful voice! Oh and FYI, he’s “pretty sure” it’s his name is pronounced “Ho-ZEE-er”…unless you’re in France and then it’s “Ho-zee-AY”. :lol:

Poison & Wine by The Civil Wars

Like sweet sweet medicine to the ears. I’ve loved The Civil Wars for years. Let’s just pretend they didn’t break up five months ago and get carried away by the soothing sound of John and Joy.

My Favorite Faded Fantasy by Damien Rice

Such a beautiful song. Really, thre just aren’t any words.

Feels Like We Only Go Backwards by Tame Impala

This song. I nearly pulled off the side of the interstate the other day just so I could figure out who this was on Spotify. Luckily…I had a passenger/DJ assistant to lend a hand…to my ear. Careful, I just realized that video may induce seizures. ;)

Inside Out by Spoon

I came across a couple of Spoon albums while “shopping” for free music at the library a year or so ago, but never really looked into them until they started popping up on some of my music suggestions. No way you can listen to this song and not start bobbing your head. And this video might help calm your visual senses after the last one…though you’ll probably feel like you’re on drugs.

Hunger of the Pine by Alt-J

I’m pretty sure I’ve said this before, but hell, I’ll say it again, I rarely know what dear ol’ Joe is saying, but I would listen to him sing songs about paint drying. This of course is only ONE of my favorite songs off their new album, This Is All Yours. I even forgive them for including some sampling from Miley Cyrus.

Elevate by St. Lucia

While I could go on and on, I think I’ll end it today with this little gem. One of those songs that I fell in love with months ago seconds after hitting play. Hopefully it brings some love to your Monday…and the rest of your week!

What’s one of your favorite “chill” songs?

Highlights from the weekend?
You know I had to work…allow me to live vicariously.

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